Its time....

I have gifts, its time I use them :)

Who are these for???

OK... so.... the other night I got the message that I should really stop doubting my abilities and go forward.  OK, I agree with that! I'm in!

Well... I guess I'm not getting a choice in the matter anymore - ya see... this morning after dropping off the husband to work, I went home and crawled into bed for a lil bit, I just wanted a tiny lil nap before mad dash shower, dress, walk dogs and out the door to work  [someone was antsy and woke me up in the middle of the night, which was difficult for me to fall back to sleep - long story short, I was TIRED]. 

WHAT was I thinking???  I closed my eyes and was quite relaxed, I was going to have an amazing mini nap!  Yeah, right!  I started getting images of people in my head [3rd eye was WIDE OPEN], my ears [although they are having some issues -- damn swimmers ear] were hearing what these people were saying.  These people were LOUD and in my face!  Telling me to make sure I tell HER [who is HER???] -- OK OK  but I don't know who she is.  You got in my face before I could see who you were talking about AND you won't back down.  This old white haired lady [hair pulled back in a short pony tail] was quite the character!  A smile that could either scare the shit out of you OR make you smile.  I did a little of both!  She disappeared before I could ask her WHAT she said again -- I needed a pen and paper to write it down.  I guess that is a lesson learned!

After she disappeared, I then got just a phone number being said over and over again!  It wouldn't stop until I made note of it.  [I'm going to call the # today and see who/what it is for]

This is going to be an interesting journey!

Journal Entry 1/23/13

10:15AM
Yeah, yeah, yeah I know... I set a goal to write every day but as life likes to hand me tons, I don't get to do it like I want!

I will continue to jot notes here and there as time permits.  For sanity sake...

Journal Entry 1/5/13

Each day I MUST remind myself that people are not necessarily on the same page as me, sometimes completely different books.
I know I need to give them time to catch up but how long should I wait?

Gggggrrrrrrr and FN Gggggrrrrrrr

I'm sick and getting worse as the day goes by (mind you, its still early) so this is making me extra crabby!
I get my paycheck handed to me - yay payday - this should make me happy! SHOULD! But nope. I look inside and see that we weren't paid for Christmas Eve - this wouldn't bother me IF I had been given the option to work (like the day after Thanksgiving) - we weren't given any choice and to not be paid when all kinds of bills are due (especially rent) just completely blows!
I am frustrated beyond frustrated!

Just want to go home and sleep! !!!

Journal Entry 1/2/13

Each and every day I work on being a better ME!  Some days are harder than others - especially when other people do things that effect me [not in a good way].

Today I am counting my blessings and researching many positive things - just so I can try and take the focus of the selfish f-heads that I deal with.

Today's Affirmation: I am worth all that I desire and then some

Journal Entry 1/1/13

So... its the 1st and I finally lost the battle to the dreaded cold that I've been avoiding! Boooo

Instead of taking on the day and accomplishing the many things I want/need to get done today, I'm laying in bed being taken care of by Rey.

With all the bitching I've been doing about how he isn't treating me the way I deserve, he is here taking care of me all day.

Is what it is... I need to work tomorrow so I need to rest and get better today.

Today's affirmation: Live in the now! Yesterday is a memory, tomorrow is yet to be...