Mish mash of thoughts

So many thoughts run through my mind and I'm not sure which to focus upon....

maybe tomorrow I can get somewhere with sorting them out, as for tonight, i need sleep. Tomorrow will be an early and long day

Tonight, Tomorrow Morning and Tomorrow Night

Lets see how I can learn from this...
Well, I need to move forward instead of being stagnant and uncertain of myself.  Time to be bold

Gratitude...

Each and every day I am grateful for so many things.  I TRY to say OUTLOUD each day for at least a few things that I'm grateful for, but I admitt that I do miss days where I make it quite known. 

Today I am going to list a bunch of things/people that I'm grateful for.  Why?  Because I am me and I am so very grateful!
Please note, that it is a given that I am VERY grateful for the health, happiness, wisdom of those in my life [while I may not type it out below, it certainly is running rampant in my mind]

1. The Universe -- it guides me to where I need to be
2. My Husband, Reynaldo -- for so many reasons
3. My Children, Craig, Cory, Christopher & Courtney -- I am blessed to have given birth to such wonderful individuals [even when they try my patience]
4. My Grandson, Jacob -- I haven't gotten to see him in quite some time but he is always on my mind
5. My Dogs, Chilli, Ricco & Maya -- wildly entertaining, always loving, they don't judge me when I'm being weird [aka ME]
6. Carolann -- there are many reasons...
7. My Job and MOST of My Co-workers -- I am fortunate to have a job when so many don't.  And I also get to be ME at my job... BONUS!!!
1. The self reserve to not throw something heavy or sharp at a particular co-worker that just gets under my skin [not in a good way!!  Think.... slimy, prick type way]
2. Some super nice clients, and 1 in particular today.... yummy yummy oranges sent from Florida :)
8. Jacob's Mommy, Nikki -- without her, I wouldn't have the sunshine of my life.
1. Also for the other amazing gift she gave me this week! 
9. My Ex-husband, Craig -- 2 amazing sons and being there for our sons the best you can...
10. My Ex-husband, Carl -- 1 amazing son and 1 amazing daughter, thank you for them!
11. The Many Wonderful People that are in my life -- each of you have had or are having an effect on my life, each and every day. 
12. The Gentleman that sold my husband my cauldron, tea kettle and brooms for a wonderful deal
13. My Car -- it gets me everywhere I need / want to go without incident.  And the fact that I have a car is a blessing.
14. My Apartment & Landlord -- allows us to have our dogs, a nice [albeit small] place to live with a horse [Patrick] in the backyard.
15. For the wonders of life, the trees, flowers, clouds, rain, snow, rainbows, animals, oceans, ponds, etc etc... just so much to list
16. All the money that I have been given throughout my life. 
17. I am grateful for all that I have and shall receive... Life is beautiful

There are MANY MANY more things and people that are such a HUGE part of my life and each and every day I am GRATEFUL

How

When you need something right now but just aren't getting it, you ask yourself HOW do I get it right when I need it.
I'm trying, really I am, I just don't know what to do or how to get it here right now.

Ouchies

Swimmers ear sucks!

That is all