Tonight, Tomorrow Morning and Tomorrow Night

Lets see how I can learn from this...
Well, I need to move forward instead of being stagnant and uncertain of myself.  Time to be bold

Gratitude...

Each and every day I am grateful for so many things.  I TRY to say OUTLOUD each day for at least a few things that I'm grateful for, but I admitt that I do miss days where I make it quite known. 

Today I am going to list a bunch of things/people that I'm grateful for.  Why?  Because I am me and I am so very grateful!
Please note, that it is a given that I am VERY grateful for the health, happiness, wisdom of those in my life [while I may not type it out below, it certainly is running rampant in my mind]

1. The Universe -- it guides me to where I need to be
2. My Husband, Reynaldo -- for so many reasons
3. My Children, Craig, Cory, Christopher & Courtney -- I am blessed to have given birth to such wonderful individuals [even when they try my patience]
4. My Grandson, Jacob -- I haven't gotten to see him in quite some time but he is always on my mind
5. My Dogs, Chilli, Ricco & Maya -- wildly entertaining, always loving, they don't judge me when I'm being weird [aka ME]
6. Carolann -- there are many reasons...
7. My Job and MOST of My Co-workers -- I am fortunate to have a job when so many don't.  And I also get to be ME at my job... BONUS!!!
1. The self reserve to not throw something heavy or sharp at a particular co-worker that just gets under my skin [not in a good way!!  Think.... slimy, prick type way]
2. Some super nice clients, and 1 in particular today.... yummy yummy oranges sent from Florida :)
8. Jacob's Mommy, Nikki -- without her, I wouldn't have the sunshine of my life.
1. Also for the other amazing gift she gave me this week! 
9. My Ex-husband, Craig -- 2 amazing sons and being there for our sons the best you can...
10. My Ex-husband, Carl -- 1 amazing son and 1 amazing daughter, thank you for them!
11. The Many Wonderful People that are in my life -- each of you have had or are having an effect on my life, each and every day. 
12. The Gentleman that sold my husband my cauldron, tea kettle and brooms for a wonderful deal
13. My Car -- it gets me everywhere I need / want to go without incident.  And the fact that I have a car is a blessing.
14. My Apartment & Landlord -- allows us to have our dogs, a nice [albeit small] place to live with a horse [Patrick] in the backyard.
15. For the wonders of life, the trees, flowers, clouds, rain, snow, rainbows, animals, oceans, ponds, etc etc... just so much to list
16. All the money that I have been given throughout my life. 
17. I am grateful for all that I have and shall receive... Life is beautiful

There are MANY MANY more things and people that are such a HUGE part of my life and each and every day I am GRATEFUL

How

When you need something right now but just aren't getting it, you ask yourself HOW do I get it right when I need it.
I'm trying, really I am, I just don't know what to do or how to get it here right now.

Ouchies

Swimmers ear sucks!

That is all

Its time....

I have gifts, its time I use them :)

Who are these for???

OK... so.... the other night I got the message that I should really stop doubting my abilities and go forward.  OK, I agree with that! I'm in!

Well... I guess I'm not getting a choice in the matter anymore - ya see... this morning after dropping off the husband to work, I went home and crawled into bed for a lil bit, I just wanted a tiny lil nap before mad dash shower, dress, walk dogs and out the door to work  [someone was antsy and woke me up in the middle of the night, which was difficult for me to fall back to sleep - long story short, I was TIRED]. 

WHAT was I thinking???  I closed my eyes and was quite relaxed, I was going to have an amazing mini nap!  Yeah, right!  I started getting images of people in my head [3rd eye was WIDE OPEN], my ears [although they are having some issues -- damn swimmers ear] were hearing what these people were saying.  These people were LOUD and in my face!  Telling me to make sure I tell HER [who is HER???] -- OK OK  but I don't know who she is.  You got in my face before I could see who you were talking about AND you won't back down.  This old white haired lady [hair pulled back in a short pony tail] was quite the character!  A smile that could either scare the shit out of you OR make you smile.  I did a little of both!  She disappeared before I could ask her WHAT she said again -- I needed a pen and paper to write it down.  I guess that is a lesson learned!

After she disappeared, I then got just a phone number being said over and over again!  It wouldn't stop until I made note of it.  [I'm going to call the # today and see who/what it is for]

This is going to be an interesting journey!

Journal Entry 1/23/13

10:15AM
Yeah, yeah, yeah I know... I set a goal to write every day but as life likes to hand me tons, I don't get to do it like I want!

I will continue to jot notes here and there as time permits.  For sanity sake...